Shade of Lust (Episode 35)

Jude’s side of the story continues
I ended up spending seven cool days at Tracy’s house and I
really had a very great time with the lovely family. They
showed me great love and I couldn’t help but pray to God,
begging him to give me such type of happy home in future.
I really felt at peace being them.

Tracy and i headed back to school at the end of the week to
face a very tough examination. I started the semester very
badly and so really wasn’t hoping for a good result.

Nevertheless I tried my best with Tracy’s assistance which
was more than enough for me.

The exam week really was very uneventful and nothing much
happened in my life apart from the regular routine of leaving
the hostel early and returning late throughout the duration.

However precisely one week after the exams, just as I was
making plans for my industrial training, something happened
that shook my entire being. It was something I never expected
in any way and yes it did happen in a very shocking manner.

On that fateful evening, I was lazily going through my bbm
chats when something or should I say curiosity made me
check Pamela’s profile. As I clicked on her profile, the bbm
status she uploaded kind of left me speechless for a while.

’’I’ll soon be a mother. Can’t wait’’ were the exact words I saw
on her status. And after few minutes of reading the status
over and over, I sent her a message.
’’congrat on the baby you are expecting. God is wonderful’’ I
sent to her with an open heart.

It really was the first time I was sending her a message after
breaking up with her weeks ago and deep down I equally was
very surprised that she could stay a week or two without
bothering to chat me up.

Yes I know i shouldn’t have sent her the message. I should
have deleted her contact long ago, but I failed to do so for no
just reason.
In two minutes, my bbm beeped and on checking it, I saw that
she replied my message.

‘’ yes I’m having your baby for my husband’’ was the reply she
sent me, leaving me so cold with shock and disbelief. My head
just went hollow that moment. I really didn’t know what to
think or what to reply.

’’really?’’ I managed to type and send.
’’yep’’ she replied instantly.
I switched off my phone and fell back on my bed to calm
down as the reality of what she just informed me did wonders
on my body.

‘’maybe she’s trying to play a fast one on me. I have to relax.
I have to keep calm before Tracy walks in and catches me in
this state’’ I said to myself as sweat soaked my body and no
matter how hard I tried to calm down, I just couldn’t keep my
mind at rest.

In few minutes, I was down with severe headache which
slowly heated up every part of my body, making it look as if I
was down with malaria. Tracy soon walked in to see me
looking so sick. Feeling my pulse, she concluded that I was
down with malaria and rushed out to get some malaria drugs
for me, which I took without hesitation because I had no
strength to argue with her.

The next day, I woke up without any headache or fever. But
my problems and fear were still there to solve. I lazily grabbed
my phone, checked my bbm and read the short chat I had with
Pamela the previous day. I read it over and over to be sure of
myself before deleting it.

‘’I can’t solve this on my own. I have to open up to Kelvin. He
is older and more experienced. He will figure out something
for me’’ I decided without any other choice.
 

After having breakfast with Tracy that fateful morning, I
headed to Kelvin’s house ignoring Tracy’s pleas to stay back
and rest. Of course she was far from knowing what really was
wrong with me and all her concerns were on my health
without knowing that something stronger was killing me
inside.